So, countdown to interview #1 with the agency. It is the first of many. I called my dad last night and he couldn't talk because he was on his way out the door. But this morning after couldn't falling asleep all night, I fell asleep at like four or five A.M. My dad called me at seven A.M. I love him dearly but I was having such a lovely sleep. Anyways I am glad he called because when I feel so anxious, scared, nervous--my dad has the perfect things to say. I may not see it at the time he's saying it but afterwards I sit down and think it.
So after my dad called, I lay down, snuggle into my sheets and pillows and whimpered, "daddiiiiieeeeeeee!" but then I woke up and showering I thought about what he said, and what he said was this, "just be yourself. Breathe, speak as intelligently, breathe, answer what is being asked." Stuff like that. And he's right...I have to remember to breathe because when I am in a certain situation, I forget to breathe and then start talking a mile a minute. Those who know me can attest to this. My drama teacher taught us some breathing exercises which I should utilize. So, I am going to breathe, lift my head held high and knockin em dead! Well--er--not really dead but you know what I mean...
So today was a beautiful day outside...and because I had drama I couldn't dress up and look all sexy--here's why. In my acting class, we move around, do yoga, jump up and down, lay on the ground--except today, we didn't do any of that *sigh* anyways I felt like getting all dolled up when I got home so this is the outcome of that being dolled up.
The sun was shining but in the back of my mind I keep thinking about tomorrow. Well some of you who haven't read this before may be wondering what is so special about tomorrow, Friday. Well tomorrow is my first interview with the guys over at Footprints for my South Korea journey. I am nervous for a few reasons--I mean I am HAPPY I finally made the decision to go. Why? I've been pussyfooting around the issue for almost two years now, even my mom was telling me to make up my mind. So finally, I made th decision. The process is LONG so if I want to be ready with everything by the time August rolls around, I figure I should start as soon as I know that I will be getting my Degree. I got confirmation on my degree yesterday because my gurl Velz and I made appointments with the advisers (no not the same ones I was with the last time) and got a print out of everything proving that I am ready to graduate.
Anyways, so I have my degree ready to go, I just have to get a police check, passport size pictures--get those pictures notorized, get interviewed by the South Korean consulate, get an Alien Card (That says I can work at my school and ONLY at my school in SK and that I am legal to go to the country - that kinda thing. It's sorta like a visa). Anyways so I need a a medical in Canada, a medical when I hit South Korea all that kinda stuff and those are just a few of the things but anyways I digressed there for a minute--the interview is tomorow and I am as unprepared for it as if I was going to go in and talk to them. I am always nervous about interviews...I have no idea what to expect.
I was getting sad about this whole deal today and I had to stop myself--I litterally stopped in the middle of my university campus, I think the guy who almost crashed into me was wondering what happened--but I figured, it's a part of life. It will be a wonderful experience, even though it is scary, it should make me stronger. So, I'm going to take a deep breath, lift my head and step into it with my all. That is all to be done at this point. I am going to be open minded and make it FUN for me and the children I get to teach if this whole thing gets approved.
Hello all, so far in 2010, I am nearly halfway to where I wanted to be. Sure, I'm on track with getting rejected from Harlequin. That seems to be yearly tradition - It's funny though because books Harlequin rejects always go on to be best sellers for me so I'm not too worried about that. It just seem they don't want what I'm selling--oh well--will keep trying.
I haven't graduated like I wanted to in December because my Advisers gave me the wrong information and then refuse to help me fix it afterwards. You have NO idea how angry I am at the moment. But the extra semester is almost over--only a few weeks and a few papers and exams to go. I started job hunting but in this economy, who knows anymore?
It just seems that no matter what I do, life throws me a curve ball and the only constant thing I have left to keep me sane is my writing. This year I've decided will be the year that I step up and start my life. I mean, sure I said that every other year but this year I am serious. I am turning 27 this year (to my mom that's three years from thirty and I keep cringing and telling her not to push it so fast) and I can't afford to be sitting around doing nothing as per usual. My friends always say, "you're a writer. You have a diploma, you're getting your B.A, you've done something with your life!"
Did I though? I mean I wanted to travel, go on road trips, have my own place by now--none of that is here. I've done some travelling but it's not what I wanted to do.
My plan is to teach in South Korea for a year. I've finally bitten the bullet and applied for that. I have the interview with the recruitment agency this Friday coming. It just grinds my gears that I have to go to a country TEN hours away to work when I was trained by Canadians and in Canada. My country can't give me a job to pay off my student loans. *sigh* But I can't just sit around crying over it. I have to get up, leave my family behind for a strange new world that's going to scare me half to death. I mean, for the first time I won't be able to call home and cry to mom and dad every other day about how everything is bad with me.
South Korea could be a galaxy away to me but it's not like I have a choice, right? It will probably break my heart but I'm old enough right? But that's not even the thing. Imagine being somewhere where you can't just hop on a bus or into your car or run down the street to your best friend's or your parent's. Imagine being completely alone in a new place, with no one to talk to. It's heart wrenching isn't it? But that's what I'm going to have to deal with. It's only a year right? And a year will go by like *snaps fingers* that. I hope...lol
Anyways about my music/video box in the right hand side. I've got music there that says who I am. I've got fun music, sexy music, old skool (am talking Freddie Jackson and The Whispers), Ke$shia, George Michael and a whole bunch others. So even if you don't read all of this blog, you'll have music to jam to. Oh and if you've read this, please become one of My Dahlins (follower) on the right hand side at the top--I think. But sign up to my blog!
Anyways, tons of love, Kato Under Construction - Lady Falcon
...Grease was the word? ...Living on the Down Low meant you were living a secret life/having an affair and had nothing with being secretly gay? ...music like "Rocky Stead" by The Whispers and "My Best friend" by Kelly Price featuring R.Kelly and Ron Isely was REAL music? ...When "Move bitch get out the way!" was not acceptable on television? ...you could go to a concert with like 60 000 other people and had a good time without worring about catching a bullet? ...your children could walk home from school without you fearing that some low life would snatch them away? ...Boys walked around with their pants at their waists and didn't look like plumbers? ....you could buy your kids any CD/Casette/record without looking at the back because you know there wouldn't be anything offensive in the music? ...Patrick Swayze was sexy as hell just because he danced and no one thought it was 'gay'? ...children didn't bring guns to school? ...condoms weren't being given to thirteen year olds? ...kids used to say 'yes sir' 'no ma'am' and not up 'yours?' ...our elders were revered for the knowledge they could pass down and not being abused? ...our war vets were respected, the flag was set at half mast during memorial/veteran's day? ...guys used to pick up their dates at the girl's home, meet the parents before taking their daughter's out? ...saying 'I do' did not mean "I will sleep with you but if you say no one night I shall find someone else who will scratch my itch"? ...falling in love was something everyone sought and a good love story made us cry? ...watching movies under the stars was the IT thing? ...lying on your back staring up on the stars was better than and TV show Disney or anyone else could cook up? ...getting a degree (BA) in university meant you could actually get a job in that field and not work at McDonalds while trying to pay off student loans? ...having a job that paid the bills was respected no matter if you were working as a CEO or washing dishes? ...men wanted to work and take care of their women and not the other way around? ...friendship meant something--something to be loved and protected and did not mean shove the knife a little deeper---now twist? ...having a shoulder to cry on meant just that and not "where the bed at?" ...having a boyfriend didn't mean ignore all your friends? ...when double dating didn't mean orgy (excluding the 60's lol)? ...girls would have each other's backs? ...two guys could hug without others looking at it as a 'homosexual' thing to do? ...having a few pounds over 120 lbs was looked at as sexy and not a sentence to loneliness for life? (We're talking renaissance here but hey!) ...saying I love you didn't make you a sucka? ...girls used to say "let's wait a while..." didn't mean her boyfriend suddenly didn't love her anymore? ....smoking in public was frowned upon? ...boys wouldn't haul up a lugi (phlegm) and spit it in front of a woman?
Ahh the good old times. Anyways, as usual my name is a link.
Ok I have to do this whole blog without a profanity so here goes--
People who use the bathroom and don't wash their hands- I don't know how many times you turn on the television or read the newspaper and you aren't bombarded by news about this person dying of the H1N1 or swine flu...seriously, people are DYING from this. And they said one of the ways to help cut down on people catching these things is to wash your hands regularly--especially after using the bathroom. Now seriously, we learned from a very young age that after using the bathroom we're supposed to wash our hands. I mean for crying out loud, I was brought up in a third world country and even I was taught that, yet people who were born and bred in this country and are not adult the whole concept of washing their hands after using a bathroom, especially a public one, escapes them. I mean even if you weren't going to wash your hands and you see someone standing at the sink, take the thirty seconds and wash your hands. I do NOT want to catch anything so me holding a door knob after you is just going to piss me off.
People who missing the mark - - Ladies, seriously, because their is a drain on the floor is no excuse for you to miss the toilet. If you were a guy, I could understand you having bad aim but we don't have that problem! Thankfully! Cover the seat with one of those seat coverings, they are tacked to the wall right over the toilet. Then sit your ass down. Do you know how disgusting it is to walk into a toilet and see pee on the floor? And don't tell me it's water because water doesn't stink to high heaven. You are in university damn it! Act like it.
People who smoke right at the doors-- Knock knock, who's there? CANCER! Idiots, there are rules about where you smoke for a reason! Don't stand on either side of the damn doors of the entrance to a building puffing away. I have nothing against smokers, I just don't want to inhale second hand smoke. My parents don't smoke and I don't so I would really appreciate you using the designated smoking areas--and since when is it PC to designate an area for smoking? If you can't hold off until you get home to light up perhaps you should buy a damn bubble and just live there.
I have a new obsession!! OMG I absolutely adore this song. It's called "Heartbreaker" by a guy name G Dragon (who incidentally is a part of one of my favorite Korean pop bands called Big Bang" so the song itself is in Korean but this guy name JD did a cover for it in english and it is AHHH-SUM! Here's his translated Lyrics (oh and I'm going to try adding the videos at the bottom. Both the Korean and the english cover by JD!:
LYRICS by JD. please do not take without credit.
A yo! Finally! Is this what you’ve been waiting for? Brand new J.D! I’m all by myself… You’re my heartbreaker DJ. Its still me Let me take this solo…
I won’t give in to this no matter what, Still there’s a part of me beating inside You are the one who’s been breaking me down Dead dreams, lost heart If it’s for you, my body will fly now, Will rush to be by your side now… However when I come around you say goodbye now
And why is it that you, don’t even want me now You tell me that your fine but I look in your eyes and they give you away. But even if I give you one more chance tonight I hate the way you stare at me those eyes could start a fight
CHORUS* No noYou’re my heart heart heart heart heart breaker It felt so right what did I do wrong You’re my heart heart heart heart heart breaker No way no way
Hey Girl, I said that we are thru, Yes Im really leaving you To see if you can live without me Cant you cant you cant you see, This is not how it should be Your my heart’s tragedy no way
Its all the same every day, telling me that I’ve changed But you just better shut your mouth Until you know what your talking about girl And now I’m out of control I hate to be all alone However when I come around you say goodbye now
And why is it that you, don’t even want me now You tell me that your fine but I look in your eyes and they give you away. But even if I give you one more chance tonight I Hate the way you stare at me those eyes could start a fight
I’ll still still be there (you never pick up your phone)I ’ll still still be there (you’re leavin me all alone) But you don’t even care (that we are nothing now but) I will still be there
Lets work it out girl, its been so long We used to, we used to be so strong Why don’t you care when its plain to ! Your heart is all I need Your my heart heart heart breaker breaker Your my heart heart heart breaker .e.a.r.t. breaker no way
So, I started school on wednesday and already I had issues. So they make collecting your student loans MUCH easier by making students make appointments rather than joining some long as hell line. Better, ok, I give them that. Then I assumed that I had gotten enough loan to cover everything but my books and I'm cool with that. I could scrounge up and extra couple of hundreds to buy my books. So, with my appointment, I walked into the student loans office quite happy until I walked up to the front desk. The lady there told me that not only am I short, but I owe the school three hundred and sixty dollars and I should hurry and pay it before late charges are placed on my account. I was floored.
I know I suck at maths but holy shit I couldn't be off by THAT much--could I? So, a few days before I tried ordering a cesaer salad from pizza pizza with my school meal card and couldn't. I tried ordering the same thing from swiss Chalet but couldn't. They kept on telling me I had no money on my student card. Then I checked my account and it told me that I had no money on one section of my account but nine hundred on a second section and two hundred and change on a third. I was confused as hell because that third section shouldn't be there. So today I sent an email to food services asking them WTF?
They replied saying that because of the kind of meal plan I had, I had no Flex section (this is the section that I can use at some restaurants around my city). I was like "erm, that's not right." Walked my ass all the way over to the office today - I dont mind. I just use that walk for my daily fifteen minute walk - and asked what in the hell is going on. Turns out, they gave me the WRONG meal plan. They gave me the meal plan that cost twice as much as the one I need. I was PISSED OFF! I mean how dare they change what I signed up for? So not only did they give me the wrong meal plan, they charged me for the wrong meal plan, which added a little over two grand to my tuition fees, which caused all my student loan money to be signed over to the school which means I had no money left over for books! Can you believe that shit?
So now I am waiting for them to bloody fix their screw up and apparently it's going to take ten to fifteen business days for it to be fixed! I am so annoyed because it took less than that to completely fuck up my damn fees and meal plan and it's going to take that long to fix. I swear to god it's a good thing this is my last year or I would have transferred. *sigh* sometimes I wonder why we even bother with school. It's a whole bloody mess all the bloody time and there's very little we as students can do about it. But we need the education - they know that so they screw with us as much as humanly possible. They change things and say nothing about it. They move classes from where they are supposed to be to somewhere completely different and not say anything, they change books, add books, charge us for things that makes no sense to a logical person what-so-freaking-ever.
But on the bright side, I am taking this course that would have cost me a little over a hundred dollars for the book. Turns out, I don't need it! So that's a good thing, right. Anyways gonna go torture Deb now *giggles*
As usual my name is a link, see what excited new place it takes you to now....now let's click on the link in absolute awe---OoooOOOOOoooo!
