Countdown to Interview #1

So, countdown to interview #1 with the agency. It is the first of many. I called my dad last night and he couldn't talk because he was on his way out the door. But this morning after couldn't falling asleep all night, I fell asleep at like four or five A.M. My dad called me at seven A.M. I love him dearly but I was having such a lovely sleep.  Anyways I am glad he called because when I feel so anxious, scared, nervous--my dad has the perfect things to say. I may not see it at the time he's saying it but afterwards I sit down and think it.

So after my dad called, I lay down, snuggle into my sheets and pillows and whimpered, "daddiiiiieeeeeeee!" but then I woke up and showering I thought about what he said, and what he said was this, "just be yourself. Breathe, speak as intelligently, breathe, answer what is being asked." Stuff like that. And he's right...I have to remember to breathe because when I am in a certain situation, I forget to breathe and then start talking a mile a minute. Those who know me can attest to this. My drama teacher taught us some breathing exercises which I should utilize.  So, I am going to breathe, lift my head held high and knockin em dead! Well--er--not really dead but you know what I mean...

Hugs,
Kato Under Construction-Lady Falcon

2010 So far

Hello all,
so far in 2010, I am nearly halfway to where I wanted to be.  Sure, I'm on track with getting rejected from Harlequin. That seems to be yearly tradition - It's funny though because books Harlequin rejects always go on to be best sellers for me so I'm not too worried about that. It just seem they don't want what I'm selling--oh well--will keep trying. 

I haven't graduated like I wanted to in December because my Advisers gave me the wrong information and then refuse to help me fix it afterwards. You have NO idea how angry I am at the moment.  But the extra semester is almost over--only a few weeks and a few papers and exams to go.  I started job hunting but in this economy, who knows anymore?

It just seems that no matter what I do, life throws me a curve ball and the only constant thing I have left to keep me sane is my writing.  This year I've decided will be the year that I step up and start my life. I mean, sure I said that every other year but this year I am serious. I am turning 27 this year (to my mom that's three years from thirty and I keep cringing and telling her not to push it so fast) and I can't afford to be sitting around doing nothing as per usual.  My friends always say, "you're a writer. You have a diploma, you're getting your B.A, you've done something with your life!"

Did I though? I mean I wanted to travel, go on road trips, have my own place by now--none of that is here. I've done some travelling but it's not what I wanted to do.

My plan is to teach in South Korea for a year. I've finally bitten the bullet and applied for that. I have the interview with the recruitment agency this Friday coming. It just grinds my gears that I have to go to a country TEN hours away to work when I was trained by Canadians and in Canada.  My country can't give me a job to pay off my student loans. *sigh* But I can't just sit around crying over it. I have to get up, leave my family behind for a strange new world that's going to scare me half to death. I mean, for the first time I won't be able to call home and cry to mom and dad every other day about how everything is bad with me. 

South Korea could be a galaxy away to me but it's not like I have a choice, right? It will probably break my heart but I'm old enough right? But that's not even the thing. Imagine being somewhere where you can't just hop on a bus or into your car or run down the street to your best friend's or your parent's.  Imagine being completely alone in a new place, with no one to talk to. It's heart wrenching isn't it? But that's what I'm going to have to deal with.  It's only a year right? And a year will go by like *snaps fingers* that. I hope...lol

Anyways about my music/video box in the right hand side. I've got music there that says who I am. I've got fun music, sexy music, old skool (am talking Freddie Jackson and The Whispers), Ke$shia, George Michael and a whole bunch others. So even if you don't read all of this blog, you'll have music to jam to. Oh and if you've read this, please become one of My Dahlins (follower) on the right hand side at the top--I think. But sign up to my blog!

Anyways, tons of love,
Kato Under Construction - Lady Falcon